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So guess who's freakin out? ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm working tommorow at 7 a.m so that i can get my check and then i'm going to the Domincan Republic on Monday after a three day vacation in Wisconsin. I am freaking out big time. I thought that vacations were supposed to be stress free, but no!! I'm worrying about some of the gayest things, like hair supplies, clothes and getting robbed. I don't know why, but i hope that all is well for me down there becuase i just haven't ever traveled outside the U.S (Canada and Mexico don't count cuz i was born and raised in Mex. J/K) Anyway. All my friends are actually pretty cool becuase they all want to hang out with me before i leave which proves that i am an actual cool person.
Subject change. Taylor Hanson is gorgeous.
Subject Change again. I went to the Townhouse which is in St. Paul and a lesbian bar for the dollar drink night and had a blast kind of. My roomates b-day is Saturday and i leave friday so i feel really bad that i won't be here. I offered to take him out, but it ended up being kind of a crappy night, becuase i got drunk and wanted to make out with people. Lesson learned once again, Alcohol is an amazing and terrible thing which leads to horniness and making out with people who you really don't want to in the first place. I unfortunately didnt' get any action, but fortunately realized that i'm glad i didn't cuz i don't want to be known as just another one of those permiscious slut gay boys. I want to keep it real and not give it up to whoever. Hopefully the DR will clear my head a little bit. Oh well, i can't type much longer cuz i have so many more things to do tonight, so i will say bounce to my N*ggas out there kim and emily and i'll see you uber hot, tan girls when i get back from my everlasting beach trip. Hopefully not poor.
-Josh
P.S.
Alexandra from MCTC wears braces which i never even notice before, until i had to actually talk to her face to face in my reading class. CRAZY!!!!!! Have fun in step aerobics and i wish i could be there but i'll be maxin and getting fat.
Quote of the day: I like the pole and the hole and right now you've got me as moist as a snack cake, so why don't you come to my place after school and i'll make your pinky all stinky. (Strangers w Candy)
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[29 Mar 2005|02:56pm] |
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OKAY!!!!!!!!!!
So I super-suck at this whole updating thing. Especially this week becuase i'm going to Wisconny world on Friday for the weekend and then my parents are gonnna drive me to chicago to meet my Minne-so-tah friend from Caribou J.P and fly together to the Domincan Republic for a week. I'm so excited becuase the weather really sucks here, although ironically enough it's really nice now, but i feel like it's my pay off for a shitty semester. The only thing i've loved about this semester is step aerobics with Emily. That's hot!!! Whatever it's a stressful/bitchy week and i need to not feel the spring time blues and actually do my homework. WE only have one week left (6 weeks) so i need to visual victory becuase before i know it, it'll be summer and i'll probably be complaining that i have nothing to do.
Future plans:
Marry Robbie Williams
Break up Taylor and his hoe to make out with him for an hour. (I think alcohol could persuade him a lil.)
Go see Hanson in SALSA TULSA with kim and emily.
Get a hot tan in the D.R and relax!!!
Be cool with just me and not worry about being single.
Party like Paris and Nicole.
Do something eventful for my 22nd B-Day On July 6th.
Write a hot script this summer.
Not stress out at Caribou.
Live life.
Okay. Now that I sound sort of cool i'll go back to being the ditz i am. So i finally got my freaking easter package from my mom and dad. Funny that it was sitting at the post office just hanging. Oh wait no!!!! I had to pick it up with no warning it was there, while my parents worried someone stole it. Whatevs. I got my movie poster for Mullholland drive today too and it looks really hot. Things are starting to look postive again. Maybe it's the weather, but i've been having less severe anxiety over school and life. I am gonna see my bitches in Wisconsin soon but that usually causes stress becuase it makes me wanna go back home more often. My friend actually tried convincing me that i'm meant to live there and while i respect her opinion, i know for the best that it's not, where i should be. Especially when she pulled out the whole speech of "how do you know you're gay" again. Ok get over it!!! Whatever.
My roomate recently won a concert to meet kelly clarkson in person with 20 other people. What sucks is that you can't bring in a camera and take pics and can only have one thing to sign. So they take your pic and then you print it offline later. I'd be kind of pissed. If your gonna have a fucking contest at least send out a nice glossy pic to have. Cheap bastards. I feel bad becuase his b-day is April 2nd and i leave the first. I want to give him a nice present, but i am broke until friday and have to save for my trip. I know he's excited about meeting her though so everything else is pretty much gay to him.
Okay well i wasn't very interesting today, probably cuz i have alot on my mind and my muscles hurt from that mega-bitch work out that i had with Em on Monday. It was a blast though becuase it was like the teacher heard what we were thinking and busted out the jock jams cd's for us to work out too. All i gotta say is that i am proud to be one quarter mexican becuase i was shaking my ass like J-Lo in my white short shorts and baby tee. J/k. It was a normal t-shirt. Anyways. Love yall and i'll talk to you lata. I gots to get to Screenwriting 2.
I just want to address the fact that whoever made up night classes is probably the spawn of satan becuase realistically, who the hell wants to sit inside in a required class on a nice day and hear a boring nazi talk? Whatev. See ya.
~J-BOMB
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| Finally back! |
[23 Mar 2005|01:58pm] |
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Thank God!!!!! I feel like i'm finally getting back to my old but good routines and getting things done. I have a "Mulholland Drive" and "Before Sunset" poster coming to me in the mail to enhance my sweet room. I painted a light orange almost yellow color and to the untrained eye, people might mistake it for a school bus. It sounds gross but this bitch can make it work i swear!!! I'm feeling a constant pull for change. I'm most definetly pissing off my roomate Chris but he's always over at his boyfriends or hanging with these bitchy gay guys that i don't nessecarily feel comfortable around. It's weird becuase me and chris are like that couple that gets along but has totally different friends and we always get on our last nerve. Who knows. It's like we're a wierd brotha and sista relationship. Guess which one I am????
Whatever. I had this crazy bitchy work out with Emily at school in step aerobics and decided that i like Wednesday classes but not Mondays. Monday's drag too much and i think Emily can agree with me that we feel like Paris and Nicole, especially during crunches/abs becuase all we do is whine and complain "Nicole It Hurtssssssssssssss." Whatever, we'll be ripped for summer and the hottest bitches ever!! Sorry that Kim can't be in class with us becuause she'd be laughing just as hard as us. I think we honestly have more fun, laughing and listening to what generic version of a popular song from the 90's and 80's will play next. It always manages to feel like we're in a queer as folk episode at the club or in general just a gay club with all the people doing these really gay dance moves and kicking to bumping 90's music. It's awesome. Kim's missing out!!!!!!!
I went to Target yesterday on my day of accomplishments (I got a lot done) and bought season 1 to the show Arrested Developement and decided that it's one of my favorite shows. I love it so much! Jason Bateman is hot!!! (He's in teen wolf too the sequel to Teen wolf) It's really well written and i look at my splurge as a school purchase, becuase i'm in screenwriting and need to start looking/listening at a variety of work.
I also got things at Target for around the apartment becuase it smells nasty and the new LifeHouse Cd. All i have to say is Emily and Kim for whoever gives you crap about Hanson, just let them know that i get it. Lifehouse is your Hanson. I love Jason Wade so much and nobody really pays any attention to them except that Jason (the lead singer) is hot!!! This much is true but i also want to address the fact that if you ever go to a concert with me (excuse me for being nasty) i will literally mess my pants in ectasy. His voice is so beautiful and the music just works with me for some reason. I don't really like bands usually like lifehouse, becuase some people might think that it's the same thing as 3 doors down, which i hate!!! but it's amazing. If anyone will go to Lifehouse with me I will go wherever they want with them AKA Hanson Tulsa...... (Hint, hint)
I gotta go shower cuz i've been really lazy since i've gotten home from good ol aerobics and need to gay up and look beautiful. I forgot to tell Emily too, so i hope your reading this, but when i was changing in the locker room my "boyfriend" from step aerobics walked past and was nice and said bye and then i went around the corner to fix my nasty hair and he was there. He was gaying it up in the mirror, fixing his hair, so he has to be gay or really, really metro-sexual or bi. Whatever. I could care less. One more thing. I don't want to be gross but you should think of hookin up with asian persuasion in our class "your" boyfriend becuase he's got it going on body wise. Great! Now that i sound like a pervert i'm gonna go take a shower and wash the slut off!!!
Peace playaz!!!
Quote of the day: Gretchen, i'm sorry i laughed at you that time you got diarrahea at Barnes n Noble and i'm really sorry for telling everyone about it right now.
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School starts tommorow after a long huge break that was well deserved. The only thing that is gay! is the fact that i have more homework than a batch and i am soooooooooooo lazy that i don't want to do any of it!!! I hate fricking school, but when it comes to the choice of either working the 36 hour week like i did at caribou or going to school i say hell no H2O! I think Caribou Coffee is literally killing me slowly and i will die a painful death there. I gots to bounce. Sorry it's so short but i don't have any time live my life. In the words of Lindsey Blowhan. Why can't they just back off me, why can't they let me live?
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[16 May 2004|05:56pm] |
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Okay, so this is probably the last entry now for a while given that i'm home right now (Wisconsin, Waukesha) but i'll be heading back for Minneapolis, MN where i'm currently going to school and hopefully working again. Caribou set me up with another interview on tuesday so i have to scramble home on monday and hang with liz and chris before tuesday. WHo knows how tired i'll be but i'm sure i'll be a crabby bitch on tuesday or later monday night. I absolutely hate!!! Driving home from the SHA becuase theirs nothing to look forward to/look at on the way up. I can handle the drive home becuase once you get closer theirs stuff to see, but that drive sucks! Once you get to Eau claire you start getting really antsy and wanna just jump out of the car but it all pays off once you see the beautiful sky line of minneapolis. There's no place like it! I love it there and it's seriously really gay freindly. Not that waukesha isn't but i was seriously so blind and judgemental when i lived here but now i've opened my eyes and don't think the way i used to. It really was and is a great learning experience for me. Especially since i wanna become a screenwriter. That reminds me. I'm sooooooooooooo sick of bitchy film students. I thought i got away from them this weekend but nope! There was this guy that starting talking to me, sarah and betsy and gelatto and i was like "ummmmmmmmmmmm, maybe not so much hooker" He was all up in our businitch like what but who cares. He was trying and i mean TRYING to be nice but didn't seem to be there when it comes to others opinions and ideas. He was all like "what kind of movies you write" and i just looked at sarah rolled my eyes and smiled and said "teen comedy's and dramas" and then he goes "oh like Porkys and animal house?" i was thinking in my head the whole time "Bitch!!!! We're not living in the 70/80's anymore you don' t know shit about teen movies." but tried beign nice. Then he proceeded to ask me what kind of movies do you like and i was like anything with mandy moore and he was a little confused and was like oh. Name some movies from a director you liked and i said Amy Heckerling that does "clueless" and he was all "blah blah blah, i'm a stupid hooker bitch and i hate that movie. Alicia silverstone is the only thing that saves it but it's still bad" and i was about to punch him becuase if you know me, you don't mess with buffy/robbie/britney or clueless!!! It's a classic. So i just smiled and he left and realized that my odds are against me and all the bitchy "artsy" students that think apocalypse now is god and it isn't. I'll take crossroads and gigli anyday!!!! I love bad movies. Maybe this is foreshadowing my crappy life ahead of me, but whatever i'm going forward in my life and i'm ready to show everyone i can do it. Especially my parents becuase i owe them so much and i don't really mean money. Just everythign they've done for me in life. Well that's it for now. mom's yelling for me to come upstairs and eat a stake and my salad. SO peace to all my playaz. J/k. Hope to write soon otherwise me and my friend chris from minny-ap are getting an apartment in august cuz my lease is up so i'll have a puter then. peace.
~Josh
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So today's my last wednesday i have to come to school early and bitch. It might be all smooth sailing and sleeping in, but it really kind of sucks because i don't have a job right now and find it kind of boring to just sit at home and watch tv/movies. Hopefully i'll get a job at either urban outfitters or caribou coffee where i applied. It those fall through i don't know where else i'm gonna have to apply. I don't want a job at another old folks home but if i have to i might have to check into it and see what they offer. WHo knows now though with my old bitchy boss from avalon fired and the new one to replace it. IT really sucks when i have to fill out applications becuase i've realized that with my old video job here in minneapolis that i can't put down my boss's name for a recommendation becuase he quit not to long ago and i started working with a new hot 30 year old boss who only was there for about two weeks. And at avalon i can't put down ursela my old boss becuase she got fired and no longer works there. I'm not putting down sentry drugs becuase that job was centuries ago and i'm not putting down westown theatres becuaes they're stupid bitches and i hated that job. So when it comes down to it, i really don't have to many people to be my resources/recommendation people. I'm not saying the correct word i want right now and it's really pissing me off! AHAHAH!
Anyway. I forgot how much i love dawsons creek. I know. I'm a stupid hooker. But it really is so cute and makes me all happy and sad at the same time and i really dont' get like that a lot if you really know me. IT almost makes me feel like i'm in love with the show and characters and that a little bit of Dawson is a little bit of me. How corny is that! It's sort of true though becuase today was the episode where everyone pretty much goes back to capeside and says their final goodbyes until the series finale where jen dies. So it was sad becuase joey and dawson were talking and joey said "I always thought of you to be the dreamer and i was the grown up, but Dawson you've grown up." and then she went on the explain that she always wanted to get out of the town to escape her past and herself but realized that maybe it wasn't meant to happen and that by leaving you don't escape yourself but it follows you there. I dont' know it sounds stupid but i really feel like i can relate and since it's my generations little show or whatever i love it. Now a days i dont' really feel hooked to any one show. SOmetimes the O.C but even that is borderline 90210 and Melrose place which revolves around sex and lies. SCANDAL!!! I don't need that shit.
Back to my school stories, so i finally finished my english class and don't have to see that crazy lez any more that is all "basketball, sports i shove baseball bats up my cootchie" girl. I really get sick of some people in my class fast, maybe cuz it's early and i really am a "mean girl" at heart. Whatever. THe positive side is that i got an "A" in my english and study skills class so hopefully i can do good in my film class and math. My math exam is monday and i'm scurrrrrrrrrrrred. (Scared) I've been getting everything up until now but now i think i just want to slack so bad that i've been slipping. It's my last math class ever! So i'm pretty excited and dont' have to worry about it alot but at the same time i do. I don't know. I've been working on my film paper and right now it's at 4 pages so hopefully i can get some progress done and finish it at 6 pages. CUz i want to get a good grade and seem to know what i'm talking about. Who knows. I'm not the average film student most people would say. I'm all "she's all that!" and "lizzie mcguire movie" And others are "Lost in translation" and "Dogville!" I could really care less if i'm labeled either way. I like everything.
Okay so i decided i need to go because i'm just talking about stupid things now and the girl next to me is reading my screen so i'll talk to ya'll lata! Hope i can update soon again, otherwise if you don't hear from me in a while call me and visit me in minny!!
Love the dorkiest person you'll ever meet
Josh
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[03 May 2004|10:17am] |
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Alright, so here i am the last day of my stupid ass english class trying to play it cool, but no!!! I tried so hard to be nice and not such a bitch and be so annoyed but i couldn't do it. I think i mentally broke down inside becuase the teacher for some reason decided to do a last minute freinds making group project and answer all these questions that had to do with a long ass reading on schitzophrenia. AHAHAHAH!! So of course who do i get grouped up with? Oh yeah the three people i've been grouped up with all semester. The ones that don't talk or speak good english and the one girl who is so getto with her baggy sweat suit that says minneapolis community and technical college on the front. I one, wanted to tell that bitch that just becuase you have a suit that says your college on it, doesn't make you cool and two that she isn't fooling anyone becuase she's the biggest lesbian i've ever met. Even worse than me. (Sarah you know what i'm talking about) People just make me mad when they dont' talk or talk to me about a project and when i tried to participate they shot me down like i was stupid. ME! Seriously i sound like such a bitch right now, but that's becuase if you were in my class with me you would know that everyone doesn't really know what's going on. I'm such a bad person i know but sometimes you just need to vent. AHHHHh.
Okay so lets talk about the positives. Well yesterday me and chris decorated my apartment with crappy streamers and strawberry shortcake decorations for our friend liz's b-day who actually was 22 on saturday but we couldn't hang till sunday. SO we decorated my apartment and made her tacos and a a cake but made it a suprise so she would be happy. So we lied and told her i'd pick her up and meet chris at my apartment where we'd go out to eat and then dance. Everything was going to plan and we'd set the food up and everythign and she called after beign out with her parents for the day. When she called she was really upset becuase she was locked out of her apartment becuase a freind that spent the night on friday had locked the wrong lock and she couldn't get into her apartment, so beign the manly man that i'm not! I parked and she explained the situation to me and said that it would be like 20 minutes till her parents would be there to help her get inside. Meanwhile chris is just hanging out at my apartment with the food gettign some-what cold and i'm freaking out. SO i remember that i have a screwdriver in my car cuz my car's getto now and i can't open the gas tank without it. SO we go to her window and see that it's open but the screens on. So that's a plus. So beign the bitch i am, and forgetting my key inside the empty house in grades school i remembered that you can just pop the screen open and crawl in. So i felt really good becuase i did that and liz crawled on my back and up into her window which i have to tell everyone is fairly high up. IT's about right above my head when i stand up straight so like 6 feet up in the air. So it was the funniest damn thing ever becuase i was freaking out and she was falling into her window and their was no one around except people looking at us across the street from their apartments. SO once she got in she locked the door properly and everything went according to plan and she was happy about the suprise.
Okay, now the f-ing bad news/good news. I told sarah about my work drama, but i have to write about how the fuckers at my work (hollywood video) pressured me into signing some paper about giving free movies away to my freinds and saying i owe 200 dollars to the company. So i decided to quit my job and went into work yesterday with chris and liz about 11:00 p.m at night to talk to him. (Late i know but we're open to 1) so i talked to him about the guy who was incredibly rude to me and my freind liz (Becuase she met him for a copy of the paper i signed). My new mananger craig is actually a good guy who doesn't really like his job there and has two other jobs besides this one. So i feel kind of bad becuase he's only 30 and has to put up with the drama that is hollywood and the consequences of me, ken, matt and this guy bill who all quit. IT sucks for craig because he's pretty new to the store and it's hard enough doing scheduling with a full staff cuz no one can work. SO i guess i'm pretty relieved to find out that matt, ken and bill aren't finishing they're shifts out either this week pretty much saying F you to the company. YEAHHHHHHHHHh. I guess i'm not the only one that bitchy guy got to sign the papers becuase bill said he has to pay 180 dollars. WHatever that guys a bitch. OH! and i found out craig didn't even know we had to pay the company and so he was like cool i profit from that! So that bitchy guy is pretty much making us pay our manager more money just cuz. Hollywood can like my clit!!!!!!
SO this whole week i'm pretty much gonna go job hunting with liz and hopefully, work at either caribou coffee, urban outfitters or someplace else. Not only do i hope to have got a job but i'm sick of beign such a punk/wussy bitch and i'm gonna ask this person out who is actually like 31 years old but i dont' even care becuase all the body language and signs of attraction are there. I want to just go with my instincts for once and try to just live life day to day. And on that note of after school special thought, i'm gonna bounce bitches!!! Hope this is long enough for you sarie!!!!!
Hope to see you guys soon or all my freinds from the sha i mean. oh by the way did mention it's my last week of school!!!!!!!!!
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I don't really get too much free time to update my journal and i love doing it but lately i've only been able to update it once a week. I hope everything will change soon thought if i get that apartment with chris. Well i mean i'd be able to update more often when i get internet in AUGUST!!! Thats so far away but oh well. My 21st b-day seems far away too but hopefully it will go fast. Who really cares if i update by then anyways becuase sarah's the only one who reads this stuff. By the way i think chris might think i like him becuase we hang out and joke around a lot and i know that sounds really concieted that i would think someone thinks about me but who knows. I hope he isn't thinking that. Whoah!!!Their was just some super hot person that just walked by so if me and sarah were both here we'd scream or make some funny comment. I can't wait till you guys come up here again. I miss everyone and can't wait to see ya'll niggas again.
Well i guess that's it for now, gotta meet my freind emily.
Peace bitch!!!!
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[14 Apr 2004|11:25am] |
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Yep!!! So i really do hate this school sometimes. I was sitting there listening the madge cd and you know minding my own business when some (sarah you know what, but i can't say right now) were pretty much talking loud and getto right in my face. I pretty much got all bitch and pissy again and got up and moved to another computer becuase they were fucking talking all getto in my face and reading my screen. Talk about pissed off!!! OH MY GOD i need to take a chill pill. "Here's my number blah blah blah" AHHHHHHHHHhh. If i could i'd scream really loud in my head but oh well who really cares. Okay so i need to calm down and just relax. So it really isn't that bad i just wish i had some of my original friends from the SHA here with me. I really miss everyone and hope we can hang out in Minnesota at least twice. Once more in getto 125 oak grove where i live now and later when me and chris move in together. I really get scared when i think about how my parents are going to react, but you know what i should be grateful for all they've done and know that they wouldn't disown me. my mom at least doesn't seem like the judging bitchy type, except when it comes to people with bad or greasy hair like wendy sonnenburg. ("Wendy looks like she's gained a few L-B's") That's a direct quote from willy herself. I really joke around about my mom but love her. I'm just a sucka that can't show affection or emotion ever!! That's the one thing i wish i could change about myself. Theirs only been a few times when i've actually broke down and I think once was in front of Stephanie and another in front of Gates.
Anyways. Don't you love the bitch game everybody? I'm so good at it i don't even know i'm playing half the time. For those of you who don't know how to play i'll explain. You basically walk past nice or attractive people and either mistakingly do it or get scared and look away right when they look interested or like they're gonna say hi or smile. AHHHH. I hate it. I do it to hot people all the time and then kick myself later becuase right when you look away you know they look at you and wanna cry. The other ways you can do it is if you know someone but don't want to talk or say hi so you purposely dont' look at them or acknowledge them at all. Wowza.
Well schools almost done and i'm pretty excited. I only have one more project for english, i'm done with study skills and math is going at the speed of a turtle but i can't hate it. I love film's in general and screenwriting stuff, but it seems that every wednesday i go to class and am super tired and can't handle it. I start to fall asleep and don't talk to a single person becuase they all have fallen victim to the "bitchy film student syndrome" That is when you don't like any movie that's not artsy and independent. For example Donnie Darko is something that makes jake gyllenhaal a really good actor, but if he does movies like bubble boy then people hate him. Well you know what bubble boy was an f-in hilarious movie and he's adorable so everyone can just lick it!!!
Well i'm probably gonna go soon. Damn i have my headphone on fairly loud and i can still hear those bitches!!! Okay i need to go before i really do make a high pitch noise and eveyrone stares at me weird. I'm gonna research some she-ra princess of power stuff becuase i can't remember a damn thing on it and apparently i loved it when i was a child. P.S. If people didnt' see this gay thing coming when i was a child then i guess they must not have been with it. She-ra dolls are almost the same as barbies but are labeled action figures so it's almost accepted. Whatever!!!
HAVE A lovely day everyone and sarah remember that i love you and will always be your best friend and their for you. If any shit goes down and you can't handle it, i'll drop everything and drive home.
~Josh
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Okay, so i think i really hate everyone at my school for real. I had the worst day last monday becuase it was group project day! Suprise, suprise i got the group where no one speaked good english or really even cared about the notes we had to take, so like a bitch i took control and did all the work again. I swear no one really knows what's going on becuase they just sit there and either stare at the floor or chew on their fucking pens!!! I get so pissed off, then when you have weather that's cold one day and hot the next it really gets to you, especially when you wear tons of layers to school and then get to a classroom where the heat is cranked on full blast and your sweating really bad. All the tension and frustration just built up inside and me and i left the room to get a drink of water before i started screaming like a psycho.
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So I set up my live journal today and hope to God I have more access and time to write in them. If anything i'll try and update every monday and wednesday becuase of my class schedule. Anyways, i really hate people in my school sometimes. I'm such a bitch!!!!!!!! I just hate how getto it can be and how no one ever makes an initiative to talk/do work in class. Right now theirs these two (cultured people) i should say that are swearing and talking all getto like "oh look at me i'm cool and gangsta" AHHHHHHHHHHh. It pisses me off it's just whatever. Anyway. I put my head set on. If anyone's wondering. I'm at school right now in the public computer lab becuase i don't have internet connection at the good o'l apartment. You know the place that i swear i only live in becuase you never see or talk to anyone in the whole place. It's kind of stephen kingish but whatever gets you by in life. It'll always be a story that's all i know. It's better than having no home like the homeless people i see in the park by school every day. It's pretty sad becuase they are everywhere and homeless. I feel really bad and my freind liz gets really pissed off becuase she works for the state government senate and is big in government stuff and says that they spend money on sports related things but not on important things like housing and school. Oh well i'm a tard when it comes to that stuff. That reminds me. I was in math the other day and my new punky brewster freind catlian (that's how you spell it she says.) If your wondering her name is said cate-lyn. So she was apparently walking to her work in the morning becuase the bus people are on strike right now and she passed this man that was crazy and homeless. WHen she walked passed him he just yelled "Fuck you!, Fuck you!, fuck you!" over and over again. I thought that was pretty funny and scary at the same time. Since i was pretty caught off guard my first day when that person attacked me, i would have probably screamed and pulled out the pepper spray and do the girl thing. You know kick him in the crotch and run blowing my rape wistle.
So how bout i try something new and make a paragraph!!! I really need this right now. This whole writing down the emotions thing, becuase last night i couldn't sleep and seriously tossed and turned for two hours. It pissed me off so much, i tried everythign to get to sleep. I guess it doesn't help trying to sleep when you're constantly worrying about school, love and friends. That's what it was. I sat awake worrying that i'll be the last one NOT worrying about getting a boyfriend or finding love. I really just want to take the days by day and go with the flow in life. Someone who really inspires me and gives me hope for a happy life is my co-worker Josh Lang. He's about 30 and is kind of worried that he should be more mature and happy with life. He lives with the most beautiful boyfreind ever and has two jobs. His personality is the best and if anything i want to be more like him. Nice to everyone, funny and not so serious all the time. Theirs being serious when you have to be and then being crazy outgoing. I don't know what the hell i'm talking about right but oh well. I am happy. The weather is getting beautiful and people have showed interest in me whether they want something serious or not, so i shouldn't be so worried about everything.
sorry this is getting so long, but hey it's my damn journal isn't it! they won't always be this long i know this much. Well, i'll wrap it up but i just wanted to talk about how another thing i really sat and thought about last night was about how i miss my freinds so much and want to see them more than anything. My freinds in Wisconsin i should say, becuase i'm now in minneapolis minnesota and i dont' ever want us to split apart or stop talking. Especially over a significant other, becuase that's the worst thing anyone could do to me. It's happened so many times before and it feels almost like your first love is ripping your heart out of your chest. IT really sucks. I have to apologize to anyone that i did that too also (Sarah) I wasn't a bitch becuase of a signif-other but i was just a bitch for no reason in general. Sorry and i do love you. all my friends. Keep in touch.
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